A Place to Escape: Archive

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So.. I have a 10 page paper due tomorrow… ( draft but still)… & lots on my mind I know this is random, But I need to calm down, And the only way to do that in my mind is to cut myself… But I can’t since my roommate is here… and since I haven’t in almost a year now…. Oh the joy of summer classes..

Aug 4th

Aug 3rd

Aug 1st

Jul 31st

Shouldn't have tried it

It made my throat swell and now I’m forever spitting because every time I sing or speak, I can feel my lungs gasping… I ruined myself.. but would you even care if I told you that day you came back?…

Jul 29th

Jul 24th

WEIGHT

I am currently in the I don’t care but would like to be healthy mode. When I got weighed at the doctors cause I am currently sick, I quickly glanced at the scale and it said 165… Now being 5’3” and 165lbs is a lot. I do have to think about my boob size too but I want to do something about it. ( I plan to get a kg scale when I go to Japan… so for now, I will just...

Jul 24th

Hara Rokujyou

My Japanese body role model Hara Rokujyou Height: 5’8” Weight: 114.64lbs

Jul 24th

Jul 23rd

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Jul 23rd

Jul 15th

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THOUGHTS

Cleaning to move again… man I hate moving… but I think this time I’m going to be a bit more organized. I decided to get rid of a lot of stuff I don’t use and save up my money… that way I won’t have more clutter since I move around a lot…. damn..

Jul 14th

Jul 8th

I went on a boat today

i looked fat… Gotta work out my abs more lol

Jun 28th

1 tag

My Fifteen Confessions:

For those who know me, don’t tell. 1. I was sexually violated when I was in 8th grade (Not sex… but violated down there). My parents found out when I was in 12th grade… They did nothing about it. He was not the last person to sexually violate me… I feel this changed the way I view men and why it was hard for me to tell someone I loved them. 2. I’ve been asked to me...

Jun 26th

Jun 24th

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Jun 23rd

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Jun 22nd

I've Decided

On going on a Liquid Diet for three days starting on thursday ( since I dont have classes). I am going to eat fruits and veggies before just so I dont kill my body. I will be writing it every time I wake up.

Jun 21st

Jun 20th

SLEEPLESS 3:46AM

Jun 18th

Late Night

Got me thinking. I went shopping and bought $60 worth of groceries: Body soap, Soup, vitamin water, black beans, almonds, coffee candy ( for when I need sugar), strawberries ( they were $7!! wtf!), Apricots, Mango, Dried Mango, Snack size pepper jack cheese ( roommate and I were craving it… bad bad bad), andd… Juice! Two things of juice… I need this to last a while since I...

Jun 18th

4,611 notes

Jun 15th

1 tag

Your Angel

I want to be your angel and help you from your misery but you stopped talking to me randomly was it because you felt the butterflies too? & its been 8 months since you stopped talking to me 7 months since you’ve hugged me and told me we’ll meet again & left 6 months since I came back with no one to bust through my doors everyday 5 months since Valentines with only you on...

Jun 15th

3505.) I don’t think I can take it any...

(via blogconfession)

Jun 15th

Jun 14th

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I dream of you more vividly

& I hate it. I dreamed that we were back at school but at a different one. I was on a yellow bus (which is funny since here in HI we don’t have a ton) and then all of a sudden you came on the bus. You Sat next to me but near the window. At first, you, as the stubborn person you are just looked out the window and ignored me when I said something. Then, you turned around and got closer...

Jun 14th

“After i write these words in my mind , i’ll finally have let you go…...”

Jun 14th